This is like one of those many days that have been occuring so frequently with me these days - Days when I go completely blank.
Zuk! And I don't even know what I am doing or thinking currently. With an oblivious expression on my face, I stare at all the creatures and objects that lie in front of me. I do not do anything. I do not think anything. I can't even recollect what I would have done or thought earlier. I can't force myself to think or do anything. In fact, I can't even catch my own thoughts.
It's like I have been separated from my own self.
Have you ever undergone days like this?
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Thursday, August 14, 2008
To LIVE a LIFE!
Brooding over the vagaries of life has been one of my favorite pastimes. But of late, I catch myself brooding over such topics a lot.
The way my life has been meandering over for quite some weeks now, I wonder whether am I really living a life, or am I preparing to die? There is an element of risk involved in every aspect of life, but if we remain scared of such risks, we will never be able to enjoy life. We will never be able to live a life.
I understand that death can come any time. But does that mean we remain scared of it and do not live our lives? To die, we need to live first!! Only if we live that we can die. Otherwise we stay like a dead body throughout our lifetime. We just inhale and exhale through our dead bodies. So risks have to be taken. Attitude should be positive, and we should strive towards that positive goal. Whatever we get in that pursuit - be it good or bad - is immaterial. But it does not make sense to avoid the entire pursuit just to avoid the 'bad things that we may get in that pursuit'. I do not want to restrict my life in any way. I don't want to have regrets while I am on my deathbed. I want to live. I want to live now. I want to live like a living man. I don't want to postpone 'living my life' to a later point of time.
The way my life has been meandering over for quite some weeks now, I wonder whether am I really living a life, or am I preparing to die? There is an element of risk involved in every aspect of life, but if we remain scared of such risks, we will never be able to enjoy life. We will never be able to live a life.
I understand that death can come any time. But does that mean we remain scared of it and do not live our lives? To die, we need to live first!! Only if we live that we can die. Otherwise we stay like a dead body throughout our lifetime. We just inhale and exhale through our dead bodies. So risks have to be taken. Attitude should be positive, and we should strive towards that positive goal. Whatever we get in that pursuit - be it good or bad - is immaterial. But it does not make sense to avoid the entire pursuit just to avoid the 'bad things that we may get in that pursuit'. I do not want to restrict my life in any way. I don't want to have regrets while I am on my deathbed. I want to live. I want to live now. I want to live like a living man. I don't want to postpone 'living my life' to a later point of time.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
An ode to a simple path
In an endeavor to simplify my complicated life, I had tried to follow a simple path.
I faltered as the path was not as simple as I had expected it to be, or as simple as the path proclaimed to be. One can call it expectation mismatch or whatever.
I kept falling down but I persevered. After every fall, I kept getting up and going. I tried my best to walk on it despite numerous falls that I had. The path was well trodden. But I was new to it. Despite licking the dust so many times, I could never ever become one with the path. All I had over my body were bruises. Some showed up, some didn't.
It was only a matter of time before I gave up. And give up did I, much to the chagrin of the path, the world, and my own self.
How strongly I had felt for that path, how much did I crave for walking down that path - only I know that. No one else can empathise with me.
Now, for the good of my life and all the other lives around me, I don't want to pursue that path (at least for the near foreseeable future). I don't want to simplify my life anymore. I would let my life be as complicated as it was, because I have realized that the more one tries to simplify it, the more complicated it becomes.
I faltered as the path was not as simple as I had expected it to be, or as simple as the path proclaimed to be. One can call it expectation mismatch or whatever.
I kept falling down but I persevered. After every fall, I kept getting up and going. I tried my best to walk on it despite numerous falls that I had. The path was well trodden. But I was new to it. Despite licking the dust so many times, I could never ever become one with the path. All I had over my body were bruises. Some showed up, some didn't.
It was only a matter of time before I gave up. And give up did I, much to the chagrin of the path, the world, and my own self.
How strongly I had felt for that path, how much did I crave for walking down that path - only I know that. No one else can empathise with me.
Now, for the good of my life and all the other lives around me, I don't want to pursue that path (at least for the near foreseeable future). I don't want to simplify my life anymore. I would let my life be as complicated as it was, because I have realized that the more one tries to simplify it, the more complicated it becomes.
Monday, March 17, 2008
Happening Weeks
So many events have been happening all around me over the last 2 months.
With the sub-prime mortgage crisis of 2007 already having started to show its effect on the economy, which is getting slower by each passing day; skepticism and pessimism is widespread as the stock markets are tumbling down. A big old investment bank has been sold for almost 1% of what it was worth just 16 days ago.
From some aspect, it looks like troubled times as everyone is wary of the impact of a global economic recession. It sure is going to have an impact on their personal lives too. But what happens to those who are already having a lot of happenings on their personal fronts.
I just happened to observe two persons involved in a seemingly strong relationship, which was not that strong as it got broken off throwing the two persons poles apart. One person stood up sooner (much too sooner!), and took up the challenge of starting life afresh with third person.
The second person involved set off in another direction in order to confront life, but ended up being in the same location as the first person. Where would life take them all? What is in store for each one of them? All these and many more questions remain unanswered. But one thing they all need very badly is optimism – a feeling that the future holds all the goods that will be delivered to them in time. So here I am, raising a toast to all these brave folks who have a lot to see in their lives, and have to come out of it with flying colors….Cheers!
With the sub-prime mortgage crisis of 2007 already having started to show its effect on the economy, which is getting slower by each passing day; skepticism and pessimism is widespread as the stock markets are tumbling down. A big old investment bank has been sold for almost 1% of what it was worth just 16 days ago.
From some aspect, it looks like troubled times as everyone is wary of the impact of a global economic recession. It sure is going to have an impact on their personal lives too. But what happens to those who are already having a lot of happenings on their personal fronts.
I just happened to observe two persons involved in a seemingly strong relationship, which was not that strong as it got broken off throwing the two persons poles apart. One person stood up sooner (much too sooner!), and took up the challenge of starting life afresh with third person.
The second person involved set off in another direction in order to confront life, but ended up being in the same location as the first person. Where would life take them all? What is in store for each one of them? All these and many more questions remain unanswered. But one thing they all need very badly is optimism – a feeling that the future holds all the goods that will be delivered to them in time. So here I am, raising a toast to all these brave folks who have a lot to see in their lives, and have to come out of it with flying colors….Cheers!
Monday, July 23, 2007
Two Thousand Words!
Three souls tried their best to conquer Mt Washington in White Mountains (New Hampshire, US) through the Ammonoosuc trail. But they could reach only till 'Lake of the Clouds Hut', and had to return due to paucity of time. Needless to say, this itself was a great accomplishment. More than words, i'll let these pictures do the talking:
That's the train that goes to Mt. Washington. For a moment, these souls thought of taking the train back to base station!
View of the valley from 'Lake of the Clouds Hut'.
That's the train that goes to Mt. Washington. For a moment, these souls thought of taking the train back to base station!
View of the valley from 'Lake of the Clouds Hut'.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
